The Master of Bad Timing.

Hey, sorry again for not having the time to post this week. I always feel like I should post something meaningful everytime I log on but there have been days where I sit here and stare at this blank slate thinking about what I’ve been going through.

Well anyways, I found out recently that I am a superhero. I apparently am the Master of Bad Timing.

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Yeah.

I’ve been thinking about what she said all week; it loops in my head constantly. She said it was all about timing…and she wasn’t the first to have mentioned this before.

I have the uncanny ability to walk into someone’s life at the most inoppurtune moment.
I just never seem to be the right person, for the right place, for the right time.
I’ve been forever never somewhere I should be at given time.

I hung to every word…

To be completely honest, I know this might sound weird and don’t take it that way..
but…
I want to fall in love with you.
You are so sweet.
So talented.
So attentive, funny, and…I suppose you could be little more confident but…
You’re awesome.
You’re the guy that girls hit themselves over the head because they didn’t choose you because we always seem to go for the asshole type.
I want to be smart for once.
I want to make the right decision, to have someone in my life that makes me feel good …
Anyway, you’re awesome and I adore you…

….and I really know that I’m not in the right place to adore you right now.

The timing is off.
I’m stuck and lost…
…and completely not ready.

And just like that, I’m back to where I started.
What is it that drives me to try to be the one that makes her smile?
Why would do I want to keep trying even though she already said that she can’t…

I really am naive.
I still believe that maybe I would be enough of a reason to take this journey with me…
But that’s what it’s all about being the Master of Bad Timing – you’re never the one.

And I still believe that beautiful relationships doesn’t come from those people that seemingly fit together perfectly but to those couples who are completely different from each other yet works to make their relationship last because of love…

…

….I just checked my calendar, I’m turning 25 in a few days.
I was hoping that I’d be able to fulfill my birthday wish, but I guess…

…it’s already over before I even blew out the candles…

Faiz out-